Happy father’s Day

      Tomorrow is a special day for all the Father’s around the world. But for me, each day since the day I existed in this wonderful world is a special day for my father. I was actually watching “persuit of Happyness” by Will Smith a while back and I really can relate with the story. My father is also a persistent and determined person. Very hard working. He started working abroad eversince I was a kid..up until now. He raised the whole family with patience, hardwork and love. He loves us so much and he is able to make us feel it that even if he is very far away from us.

         My father is a funny man. Every moment being with him is a happy moment. He might look tough on the outside, but really, he is a jolly man and cool to hang out with. I guess that’s the reason why I got this “clowny” attitude. But hey, he was able to discipline us..the three of us. He taught us the good ways of living. He taught us the rationality as well as the morality of life. He taught us the principles that should not be missed in life. He taught us all the good things.

 Yes we are not rich. But he taught us to become rich.  As a whole family, we are rich . For the record, I never saw him fight with our mother…eversince. Not even a little argument. I never saw him shout at “nay”..Whenever he is drunk, he goes to sleep and never bother us. Not unlike any other dads that I know who starts a havoc in the house whenever they are drunk. My father is different. 

Religious Escapade To Silang Cavite

Together with some former seminary colleagues, we traveled to Silang Cavite to attend the religous profession of our seminary batchmates.  Hmm..actually I really dont know how to explain what “religous profession” is. Hmmm..let me try.

You see…becoming a priest literally takes time. Diocesan priestly formation takes about 10 years. Religious priest formation takes above 15 years. In the Rogationist religous formation, it usually takes about 16-17 years (if I am not mistaken). would you imagine? This is the very reason why priests dont marry. Why? because they are given a long time to decide whether they want to be God’s warriors or not.

Priestly formation usually takes a lot of stages. 4 years of Philosophical studies. 1 year postulancy. 2 years Novitiate. 2 years practical brotherhood. 4 years theological studies. 1 year deaconate and finally the ordination to priesthood. 

Unfortunately, I only survived for two years. But those were the two fruitful and substantial years of my life. 

 Anyway, last Sunday ends the Novitiate years of our 3 seminary batchmates. Originally, there were 35 (if im correct) of us in the batch. Now there were only 4 of them surviving. Mighty are those who survived. (sigh). On that Sunday, they were officially welcomed as Rogationist Brothers. They officially took the vows of Poverty, Chastity, Obedience and the rogate. That is the meaning of religous profession.

 I am so proud of them…really..especially when they entered the chapel wearing their Religous habits (sutana). I cant help myself from thinking, sana ako rin. 

Rant On Hayden-Halili Issue

Alright…this issue is getting way too far. I just dont understand why the senate has to make their probe open to the public? When in fact it does not really involve the public. Why is it made public while the Erap Plunder case hearing [Erap vs “the republic of the Phil”] was not open to the public. Hmmm…It turned out that today’s senate probe on the issue was insubstantial. Kho got a shower of mineral water. Halili being a dramatic artist at her best. I mean, it was all a show..obviously. I think the hearing would be more fruitful  if it was kept on a private executive session.

On the first place, why is the issue taken too much consideration by the senate? There are more victims prior to Katrina. Why do they only take big actions now? Why do the Optical Media Board only raid Katrina-Kho scandal videos?  The Kho-Halili video is not the only video scandal out there. There are even worse victims than Katrina.

What I am saying is, there is a big bias going on. Authorities should also do the same thing to all the victims of this kind of crime. If the senate made a leap on Kho-Halili issue, then it should also do the same to other victims. The polic and OMB should also confiscate all othe scandal videos out there.

Hangang Ngayon

dali dali xang naglakad…naglakad ng matulin…mukha  niya ay nakatingin sa baba. tila bagang ayaw ipakita sa mga nakasalubong. Ayaw isulyap ang mga mata sa mga nadaraan. Pero alam niya kung saan siya patungo. Sa wakas, karating din niya ang kanyang bahay. Dali daling binuksan ang pinot tska pumasok…at ganun din ang bilis niyang sinara ito.

 …sa pagkakataon ding iyon…

di na niya napigilan ang kanyang damdamin..di na niya napigilan ang mga luha na  bumuhos mula sa kanyang mga mata.

“bakit”..”bakit hanggang ngayon.. yun dahilan ng pagbuhos ng mga luhang ito noon..ay sya paring dahilan ng mga luha ko ngayon?”…

Napaka-unfair Talaga.

Galit ako. Promise.

Galit ako dahil ayaw niya akong i-text at ayaw niyang sagutin ang mga tawag ko. As in punung-puno na talaga ako! Promise. Galit ako pero hindi ko alam kung paano ko ito ibubuhos. Nasabi ko ang mga bagay na hindi ko dapat banggitin sa kanya. Sabi ko magrerevenge ako. Dahil sa galit ako. Gusto kong maranasan din niya ang nararanasan ko ngayon. 

Isang pindot na lang sa “call” para makausap ko ang kanyang ina. Nangako ako sa sarili ko na hinding-hindi ko ito gagawin dahil alam ko makakasama ito sa kanya. Alam kong galit lang ang nagtutulak sa akin para gawin ang bagay na ito. Hindi ko alam kung pano ko ibubuhos ang emosyon na ito. Hindi ko talaga alam. 

Mahirap suyuin ang taong ayaw na talaga sayo. Siguro nga ayaw na niya talaga.  Pero hindi ako magsasawang maghintay sa kanyang pagbabalik. Titigil na ako. Pero hindi ako titigil na maghiintay.

 Ako lang ang taong makakaintindi sa kanya. Ako lang ang taong makakasurvive sa ugali niya. Kung nababasa man niya ito, gusto kong malaman niya na andito lang ako. Ready to embrace her back. I really really want her back…now i am respecting her decision but still I am raining the heavens with my prayers for her return. 

I think I have gone far enough. Pagod na rin ako. Pagod na rin akong maghabol. Maghihintay na lang ako…atleast hindi yun nakakapagod.

Yehey..Malaya na ako? Pero bakit ako malungkot?

oo. Malaya na ako. Pero damang dama ko ang lungkot at sakit. “move on Ron..” sabi niya. Sorry pero di ko alam ang ibig sabihin nun e…hindi ko rin alam kung pano ko gagawin yun. Basta ang alam ko lang…kung kaya mo pang ipagtanggol at kaya mo pang ilaban ang iyong nararamdaman…iyon ang ibig sabihin ng move on para sa akin.

Malaya na ako. Pero mas gugustuhin ko pa na maging Preso kaysa sa maging malaya  ngunit di naman alam ang patutunguhan. Mas gugustuhin ko pang makulong pero masaya kesa sa malaya ngunit punung-puno naman ng kalungkutan. Malaya na ako. Pero hindi ito ang gusto ko. At kailan man hindi ko ito gugustuhin.

 sabi niya,ayaw daw muna niya ng commitment. Hindi ko lubos maisip kung bakit? Sabi niya gusto niyang magfocus sa pagaaral…hindi ko alam kung bakit? Nakapagsurvive kami ng college dahil nagtulungan kami..dahil sa commitment namin sa isa’t-isa. Lagpas tatlong taon kami nakapagsurvive dahil sa isat-isa.

 Ganunpaman, isa lang ang alam ko. Kelangan ko siya. Kailangan ko ng isang Santa. I can’t imagine myself with anyone else…if not with her. 

 Badtrip. Dumagdag pa tong ulan…dumagdag pa tong lagnat ko. 

 Yehey. Malaya na ako…pero alam ko hindi ito ang kasiyahan ko.

Easter Sunday

Happy easter Sunday everyone!

What about easter? Is it the eggs that makes easter very special? Yes…atleast for the little kids. Easter is actually the highest and most celebrated event in the history of christianity. It is actually the peak of the liturgical calendar. Simply because we celebrate the resurrection of Jesus. Dont get me wrong in here, I am not making any pastoral sermon or anything. I would just like to remind everyone that we have to remember that we have been saved from damnation through Jesus’ death. Hence, time to celebrate and thank Him.

 Oh..here is a trivia..Do you know that not all who celebrate easter christians? Witches and wizards also do. How come? well, easter season is part of Hogwarts’ formal vacation. Harry and all the other students go home to the muggle world. Because it’s easter! i know i am not actually making sense here…

 This is the first time that I celebrate easter without my family and relatives. Sad. But its fine. We used to go to picnic by the beach or by the river during easter. All of us. It takes 2 trucks to accomodate us all weeh... That is how HUGE my family is. One happy Huge family.

Sadly, the long vacation comes to an end. Trabaho na naman!

Memorable Holy Week

It is actually the very first time in my whole wicked life that I spent my holy week away far from my beloved. It is not by chance…but its my choice. Just for a change. so far I am doing well. I enjoyed the cold ocean breeze…especially when it gently slaps unto my face. It feels great actually. It is as if mother nature is trying to embrace my whole person. I met a lot of people both locals and tourists like me. 

 I went to the parish church early this afternoon. The church is apparently near to where I am staying which is more likely 2 blocks away I believe. I went there early because I want to have a confession. It has been a long while since I had my last confession. I think years passed already. When I was still in the seminary and (before I enter)…I usually go for confession at least twice a month. I do it on the second and last Wednesdays of the month. I remember, I even cut out from my morning highschool class  just to go to the church (which is inside the school campus) and confess. That was the holy in me. I changed. I must admit that. Ive grown up to be a  crazy man. 

anywei, indeed, I was able to confess my sins and hopefully the most Holy God in heaven have forgiven me already. I came to know Vincent who happened to be a former rogationist seminarian (like me) and currently a diocesan deacon. I had a very great time with him. Very noble and pious. He asked me why I am here. I  said I came here to find my self (urgh! dramatic stupidity)…he laughed…because I was joking. I am actually here to pamper myself. Because I know myself misses myself a lot. 

 Thankfully, things are doin great as what I planned them to be. i enjoyed a lot. I enjoyed the beach. The white sands. And the clear sea water. The garden. The high rising mountains. The sun. Not to mention the water pampering jakuzzi. Sad to say but I am going back to my normal busy life in Manila tomorrow. I will surely miss this place. Actually, I was planning to stay here till easter but unfortunately, i got some financial limitations. Hait! But thank God…for this wonderful weekend. 

101 Things That I learned

For the past three years, I learned a lot of things. I am so glad those years turned out unwasted. Atleast I earned some knowledge. Knowledge upon experience.

1. Treasure the present.Forget the past or the future.

2. Treasure those things that you have.

3. Don’t hold on the handle while on the escalator.

4. Always bring some cleansing alcohol.

5. Don’t hold onto the handle while boarding a jeep.

6. Going to the market is fun.

7. Don’t just sleep when someone comes to visit you.

8. Not all lawyers are bad.

9. Don’t promise if you can’t make it.

10. Go to church every Sunday.

11. Don’t argue much about religious beliefs.

12. Time means love.

13. “alamang” is a good mix for fresh veggies.

14. Pray before meal.Always.

15. Prayer always works.

16. “ukay-ukay” goods are not bad at all.

17.Cooking is a great pass time.

18. wearing eyeglasses does not always imply nerdiness.

19. The constitution is a pain in the ass.

20.Pain does not always mean “hurt”.

21. Don’t trust people so much. Moderate is enough.

22. Love is not a game. Its a life.

23.Happiness should be permanent. If its temporary, then its not authentic happiness.Its just a joy.

24. The seminary is the happiest place on earth.

25. Learn to love the rain.

26. Failure on your major subject does not really affect your future.

27. Mickey mouse is not just for kids.

28. A whole new world…a dazzling place.

29. Be patient when teaching someone how to play piano.

30. Emotions are at times best expressed through writing.

31. Chocolates are also vitamins for the heart.

32. Always clean the room. And most specially, the “self “…i mean the “shelf “

33. Money is worthless.

34. Three lollipops a day is healthy.

35. One piece of rose a day is sweet.

36. The best buko pie comes from the north-east.

37. Always give out chocolates every valentines day.

38. Greet your girlfriend on christmas and new year.

39. Diabetes is deadly.

40. Dead flowers are better than the fresh ones. Because they don’t wilt.

41. Jokes are meant to make someone happy…not to insult somebody.

42. Sunflower seeds are better than butong-pakwan.

43. Being angry is a good thing.

44. Crying can dehydrate the body. That is why its deadly.

45. You dont have to be good to be worthy to be called a christian. You just have to be true. Because God is the truth.

46. Our existence is defined by other’s existence. So, loners dont exist.

47. Fate is not synonymous to destiny.Vice versa.

48. Beauty can’t be seen…it is felt.

49. Having a rebonded hair does not necessarily qualify you to be pretty.

50.You can actually taste death without dying.

51. Aristotle, who first percieved the notion of  God…is not a christian.

52.  Don’t compare. Everyone is unique.

53. Put baby powder all over your body before going to bed.

54. Smile is the best tool for pretention.

55.  There is nothing more painful than being driven away.

56. Clowns get hurt too when they are being laughed at.

57.  Spischie is the best name ever.

58. Sometimes good things are done by doing bad things.

59. Believe it or not..there is a legend of the indirect kiss.

60. Polar bears dont have white fur…they have transparent ones.

61. Love your work…but dont treat it as your life.

62. The philosophy of life can’t define life per se.

63. Atleast own two pairs of pajama.

64. No one appreciates nature better than photographers.

65. The past memories are like hyacinths…you have to cut them out in order to bloom again.

66. Failure does not mean defeat.

 67. Sorry is not an word of apology…its a word of courage.

66. Words can decieve. Beware.

67. Intelligence is far different to wisdom.

68. How can Newton’s law of gravity explain “falling in love”?

69. There is no day but today.

70. Life is a treasure. That is why it has to be spent wisely.

71. Being simple is also becoming luxurious.

72. A hot tasty soup is best when its raining.

73. If its raining, Wear raincoat rather than using umbrella… then go to the market.

74. Always find time to take photos with your parter.

75. Don’t take any medicine when feeling sick, trust God.

76. A tight hug can cure a fever.

77. Studying is bad, it ruins relationships.

78. Reaching 18 does not necessarily mean you are free.

79.  A spam is not a virus.

80. The best cook is a saint.

81. There is nothing more special than the mongolian grill.

82. The pink sisters  has a living curse for lovers.

83. Always double check you change after paying the bill.

84. True friends are true enemies.

85. You can actually (literally) touch the clouds..in Baguio.

86. Some people are not actually aware that the ocean water is salty,,,pathetic ones.

87. Nescafe 3 in 1 coffee is a lot better than starbucks coffee.

88. Money should not be blamed. Its man’s greediness.

89. Vegetables are best eaten fresh.

90.  Traversing the eco-trail  is fun…if you are with your partner.

91. Only .1% of the female specie does not care about their looks and figure. ONLY .1%.

92.  Happiness is the cause of evil…at the same time the root of goodness.

93. I just realized, that over the 22 years that I existed in this world, I never saw my parents fight..not even a simple argument. Something worthy to be proud of.

94.  A simple morning greeting can changed someone else’s life.

95. A simple goodnight can brush away all the day’s stress.

96. If you want to kill yourself, make sure you’ll succeed.

97. Success is not entirely measured by one’s profession .

98. Love can be bought…make sure you’l’ find the store that sells one.

99. The Filipinos are not really worthy to die for…they are worthy to live for.

100. Grades are just unsubstantial figures…they can’t even measure wisdom.

101. Life’s learnings are not really quantifiable. They are not only limited to 101. 

There is more to life! Grasp every knowledge that it offers…

Time For Myself

Holy Thursday. I am writing this post somewhere in the Philippines. Somewhere far away from the busy city. Somewhere where I can be with myself and with no other else.( besides the trees the beach and the glorious kindness of mother nature). I am glad to find this lovely place and I immediately booked a reservation. Although I was not really feeling well last night, I still managed to come here all alone. It is a solo escapade.(yeeehaa!)

 I needed time for myself. I needed time to refresh. For the past few weeks, I was too bothered thinking for other people and forgetting the “me”. I was too preoccupied on my job(s). I realized  that I need to take a break. Free myself from business even just for a while. Anywei, so far I am doing good. I just arrived early this morning though. Thank God my hotel got a wireless connection. I still am able to “plurk”..hehe.

 I sure will have some fun in here. I cant wait to walk by the shore later. I wont let anyone know where I am exactly. The Philippines still has a lot of hidden paradise.

Almost A Bad Day

Ewan ko ba. Hindi masyadong masaya ang araw ko. There are only a few officemates who went to work. Some of are on leave. Some are already on vacation.Some are just too lazy to come in. And one had his last day of office.And Me… I have my own reason(s) to be sad. SAINT.damn.

 Then i got home so tired and so hungry. I really hate this kind of thing. I want to sleep but my mind wouldnt let me. What am I so bothered with?I want to go out and eat but I just feel too lazy. O my…I want some french vanilla with cookies and muffin toppings. Hehe. 

Why Fight If You Are Sure You Ain’t Gonna Win?

This is a very tricky question asked by somebody [that I know].

  Well..I believe that “fighting” begets the idea of hoping. You fight because you hope you’ll gonna win. Regardless whether you know and you are certain that you’ll gonna lose. Makes sense?Fighting is all about positivism…if you say you’ll gonna lose the fight..then that is not fighting anymore. O boi.